BEGIN AGAIN: 50 Resolutions before I’m 50.

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It started as a way to improve my life. Yet, the joke was on me. Life somehow ended up kicking me in the ass instead. Eleven weeks into my resolutions, I became depressed and angry and nothing seemed to matter. Except my kids.

When the world falls apart around a mother, there is no hiding in bed for days or running away. You have to get up each and every morning, put on the best damn smile you can muster and face the world. The kids deserve that.

What else got me through? A few of those silly resolutions I’d made that had become habit. Exercise, meditation, and thinking about gratitude made each moment better and better. Everything else? I’m working on it.

So where am I today? One hell of a lot stronger than I was. Bring it on world, I can handle it.

So I’m beginning again one month into my forty ninth year. I want a better life and I’m going to continue to move toward it.

So what is my 12th Resolution? To never give up on resolutions. When I backslide, I get right back into it. No excuses.

Are you ready for a journey? I am.

 

The first 11!

  1. Journaling
  2. No television after 8pm
  3. Exercise everyday
  4. Eat better, at least one salad and one nutrition shake per day.
  5. Meditate everyday.
  6. No sugar.
  7. Finish the meditation, the exercise, the journal first thing in the morning.
  8. Look over my To Do list before I go to bed.
  9. Write at least one blog post per week.
  10. Watch something in French once per week.
  11. Add gratitude into my journal.

 

Fifty Resolutions in Fifty Weeks Before I’m Fifty. Resolution 11

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Life isn’t always easy. Sometimes, goals remain out of reach even though you want them so bad and you try with all your might to grasp them in your hand. My habit for the past few weeks has been to focus on all that is wrong with my life in my journal. I complain and whine and declare how unfair life has been to me. Then I head out on my day and things become brighter. The sun is shining, my children are happy, and my circumstances are not nearly as bad as other people’s. In fact, it becomes almost embarrassing to have complained at all.

This week, I’m adding a twist to my journaling resolution. I have to start each journal page with a blessing, something in my life that provides me with joy. My goal is to leave the negative behind and find something positive in everything that affects me. If I can’t change something, I can lament that fact on the pages, but then I need to move on. If I can change something in my life to make it better, I can begin my plan right there. Ultimately, my happiness is my own to make and there are so many things around me that foster joy, I’ve just been overlooking them.

Until next week!

Resolutions so far.

  1. Journaling
  2. No television after 8pm
  3. Exercise everyday
  4. Eat better, at least one salad and one nutrition shake per day.
  5. Meditate everyday.
  6. No sugar.
  7. Finish the meditation, the exercise, the journal first thing in the morning.
  8. Look over my ToDo list before I go to bed.
  9. Write at least one blog post per week.
  10. Watch something in French once per week.
  11. Add gratitude into my journal.

 

Fifty Resolutions in Fifty Weeks Before I’m Fifty. Resolutions 9 and 10

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So I missed blogging last week and therefore, I’m throwing a resolution at the problem. My ninth resolution is to write at least one blog post every week. Perhaps the power of the resolutions will keep me on track. I am in the middle of writing a new novel and most of my writing time is spent making sure my word count stays consistent so I’m on track to make my deadline. I’m happy to say that so far, I am 100% on track for completing the book with time for several rounds of edits before sending it to my editor.

As for my other resolution? It’s one of my personal pet peeves. Once upon a time, I could speak French. Now? Not at all. So my tenth resolution is to watch a movie in French once per week. It should help me remember the vocabulary and the cadence of the language. I thought I’d start with Harry Potter. My children speak French much better than I do, so maybe I can convince them to join me.

50 Resolutions In 50 Weeks Before I’m Fifty: Resolution 8

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It’s week 8 and time for a new resolution to add to the first 7. Somehow, I have not miraculously lost ten pounds or even a inch on my waist. My bank account is not fuller, and I’m not magically a better mom. I am, however, a little bit more centered in the chaos that is my life. That counts for something.

This week, I was going to try to stop swearing, but I need to keep swearing to calm my frazzled nerves, so I’m trying something simple. I’m going to look over my ToDo list every night before I go to bed.

Journaling

I’m better with journaling now that I force myself to do that in the morning.

No television after 8pm

I watched Law and Order the other night with my Oldest, but otherwise, I don’t watch television.

Exercise everyday

I’ve been exercising every morning and feeling better.

Eat better, at least one salad and one nutrition shake per day.

I have not been doing this as well as I could because I’m out of the house so much and tend to grab things at drivethroughs.

Meditate everyday.

I have been decent with this. If I meditate first thing in the morning, I’m on for the whole day.

No sugar.

I ate my daughter’s birthday cake. A mother’s job!

Journal, Exercise, Meditate first thing every morning.

I have been okay with this, but generally only do two out of three in the morning. I’m pushing myself to get all three done.

I’m running around and traveling this weekend. Let’s hope I can stay on track. Any suggestions for next week’s resolution would be welcome.

50 Resolutions in 50 Days Before I’m 50: Resolution 7

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I’m at the 7 week mark and my resolutions have been swallowed up by my busy life. Excuses abound. I have to go to a meeting or be in court, I have to drop off or pick up the kids from school or another activity, I have to get a manuscript to my agent or write a synopsis. All a bunch of BS excuses.

It was Katy Regnery who kicked my ass into realizing that saying I’m going to follow my resolutions and actually following them are two different beasts. So I need a resolution that brings the first few weeks all together.

My resolution this week is to finish the meditation, the exercise, the journal first thing in the morning, before my day fills up with my ToDo list or my mind falls into my stories and I refuse to come up for air. I’ve got this!

Journaling

I have to do this first thing in the morning.

No television after 8pm

I’m really good with this one.

Exercise everyday

I have to do this first thing in the morning.

Eat better, at least one salad and one nutrition shake per day.

I am force feeding myself a salad a day. It makes me feel better after I eat it, but I’d prefer French fries.

Meditate everyday.

I have to do this first thing in the morning.

No sugar.

Surprisingly, I am handling the no sugar thing pretty well. Although if you offer me a brownie- I may have to kill you.

50 Resolutions in 50 Days Before I’m 50: Resolution 6

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This is the hardest resolution I’ve decided upon so far. I’m giving up sugar. No candy, no brownies, no pumpkin spice lattes. As an almost 50 year old female, I’ve noticed my weight climbing even though I’ve been eating the same diet for years. More exercise doesn’t help.

The fourth resolution of drinking a nutrition shake and eating a salad a day have increased my well-being because I’m finally eating nutrients that help me stay healthy. The weight however? No change.  I’m not looking to drop to my high school level weight, but merely to rid myself of a stomach that seems to rounding out. That is not a good look for me.

So far, I’ve lasted 8 hours. Will I have birthday cake and an occasional piece of chocolate? Probably. Although if I find that my cravings become overwhelming, I may need to back off long-term. One week at a time.

How am I doing with the rest of the resolutions so far.

Journaling

I stink at journaling. I thought this would be the easiest resolution to keep. It’s not.

No television after 8pm

This one is going strong. I work at night and spend time with my family. When I have free time, I read.

Exercise everyday

I’ve been doing great with this. Mostly by running a mile every morning. I feel stronger everyday.

Eat better, at least one salad and one nutrition shake per day.

I am finding creative ways to have salad every day. Supermarkets have prepared salads where you mix the ingredients and go. They help.

Meditate everyday.

I’ve been doing only two minutes per day and have a hard time concentrating, probably because I’m in the middle of plotting a new novel and the plot invades all of my thoughts. I’ll continue to add time to this as I get better.

 

 

50 Resolutions in 50 Weeks Before I’m 50: Resolution 5

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It’s been a month on my quest to change my life. Overall, I love the idea of resolutions. They help me keep on track with things I want to accomplish, but tend to blot out of mind when life gets too hectic. For fifty weeks, I have to think about resolutions, all of them everyday.

How am I doing so far?

  1.  Journaling

I’m surprisingly not great with this. I’m too tired to write before I go to bed at night and so I write a few sentences in the morning. More a summary of my day than an overview of my feelings.

  1. No television after 8pm

My family time has become richer by shutting off the television at night. I work on my computer, but I’m available for everyone while they’re doing homework and as they wind down for the day.

  1. Exercise everyday

When I get my exercise done in the morning, I’m good. But if I try to fit it in later in the day, I miss exercise over 60% of the time.

  1. Eat better, at least one salad and one nutrition shake per day.

Forcing myself to eat has been a blessing. I eat salad everyday, and have a shake for breakfast. They are filling enough to me that I don’t snack as much. So this one so has been the best resolution yet.

As time goes by, my life is better with these tweaks, but nothing is perfect. I have good days and bad days, but doing nothing is not an option.

For my fifth resolution?

My brother wants me to try meditation. I hate meditation. The idea of trying to not think about anything for a writer who has thirty plots trolling the background of her mind daily makes the task impossible. If I’m stressing about whether I can get away with a pounding heart in a scene instead of something infinitely more unique, to I’m thinking about my grocery list or whether the kids brought their homework to school.

As a compromise, I’m going to try two minutes of mediation per day. I can do anything for two minutes, except planks. I even have a guided mediation program on my phone. I’ve got this.